1. Song today is Numbers on the Boards. It's so good I wrote like a paragraph on how good Kanye's production was around the time of its production as if he wasn't Adolf Hitler now.
2. I'm like 99% sure you always look worse in a laptop camera.
3. The brain is very interesting in a way where you can suddenly come around on things that you once hated or were apathetic to and vice versa.
4. I really liked eggs when I was young-- I say this without exagerration-- it took probably about until I was 12 until I started eating them again.
5. I also didn't really like Bakemonogatari either. Around 2019 this was. I thought "monkey dyke" was hot but I didn't get much else out of it really.
6. Begin asking yourself if there will even be a future in the material world. People have begun to see social withdrawal and terminal onlineness as this means to an end in the manner of classical hermits. It feels a lot more complex than that, everything does, really.
7. Before anything else, I see it as a cultural thing (or the lack thereof). Is real life, namely social interaction with others, that shallow to that many to a point where they would view it more advantageous to exhaust their time on the internet instead? Of course I'm no stranger to the idea, but this is a catch-all for a growing underclass of people who very evidently have gained access to an endless stream of information that they have zero way of regulating, self or otherwise.
8. There can be nobility in this, but often times there just isn't. The factors which dictate this are myriad. Only one that matters is being in the right place at the right time in your late adolescence.
9. My stomach's kinda been upset all day and I've hated every second of it. I've lived life with an iron stomach for the first 15 years of my life and then I just became completely bitchmade.
10. As hard as it is to speak I can always write well when I'm tired. It's like a special i_ai_r savant syndrome ability that makes me completely retarded in one regard and extremely powerful in the other.
11. If you don't think I write particularly well on here then 1) You're wrong and 2) Actually it's really late at night and I'm pretty tired and I haven't been sleeping well recently and my stomach hurts and my feet are kinda sore and I miss my dogs and I got a math quiz this Thursday
12. I need to sleep.
13. I'd maybe like the world to be a little more fun.
14. I just said that I would make a last.fm but really I'm not that sure anymore. I don't think I'd even put it to use anyway! UPDATE: i never go back on my word and i mean it
15. I wish that we didnt have timezones or anything and we just all experience the same day as it comes and goes. One timezone. The human timezone
16. Israel has denied the possibility for a one timezone solution, stating, "what the fuck"
17. On the internet, again: One thing that it too has done has allowed people who should have never interacted a single moment in their entire lives to enter blood feuds fueled by otherwise menial actions.
18. Frittata is actually pretty good and I'm still hitting myself on the head for my excessive eggphobia for much of my early life. I really could've grown big and strong that way! I loved milk too!
19. Arrays start at 0.
20. A reminder, as me and my group spent 20 minutes trying to fix a small issue in writing image data, to where it produced an extra row of black pixels on the top of the image we attempted to write.
21. It's seriously the funniest fucking thing and a little bit too on the nose as well: The problem could be right in front of you and you wouldn't know because everything appeared normal.
22. Always be sure to check the "best by" date on your milk every morning to ensure that a few digits aren't flipped, that may be why you want to kill yourself honestly.
23. I'm really insecure about my average sized hands. At least they're kind of veinous. But I'll never play high level valorant. I'll never be a dom daddy.
24. It's too late to become a woman too.... sshibal sighs and turns around and walks away while tears well in my eyes
25. In all honestly, I guess I can say I have body dysmorphia in the sense that I don't know what I look like and I don't know what I want to look like. I've had several people compliment me on my physique even though I felt I was not even close to my eventual goal. I'm not sure if that helps or hurts me.
26. That being said though, I wish I could look like a few completely different looking people at any time. I want to be able to swap bodies and shit.
27. Garcian Smith killer7.
28. I feel like completely different people on completely different days to begin with. I think it all begins with sleep. I don't have DID or any they/them stuff like that.
29. Something's for certain though, there's some situations where my brain just completely shuts off. I often find myself disassociating then (where "disassociation" would just be a complete lack of visible emotion, motor function, and unfocused eyesight, often thought as well).
30. I guess I just hate having to be expected to deal with intellectual tasks in a noisy environment when 2/3rds of my brain is already occupied by a less obtrusive noise that sometimes echoes back New Order choruses unto me.
31. Everytime I see you falling, I get down on my knees and pray. I'm waiting for the final moment, you say the words that I can't say
32. i_ai_r meal advice: 3 eggs and rice with a light soy sauce drizzle. Also remember to lightly salt the rice in whatever fashion you cook it in (it should be with a rice cooker, because pilaf is mushy slop).
33. i_ai_r meal advice: best fruits: cosmic crisp apples, sweetango apples, lucy glo apples, green grapes, mandarin oranges, bananas, strawberries. best vegetables: carrots, corn. i have a chrisean/blueface relationship with broccoli
34. Bitch call my phone she like blah blah blah blah
36. The 35 that is spoken is not the true 35
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