10A10R "崩れた仏鉄塊" "The New Cracker
1. I completely forgot where I found this song in the first place.
2. I learned the hard way today that I can't eat fibrous vegetables. I'm talking bok choy, spinach, broccoli. It still hurts. Why can't I eat anything now? I can't even go Popeye mode now. Is it over for me?
3. My head really hurts right now so right now I'm just trying to get my mind out on this page right now. I hope it improves the quality of my work!
4. The more I feel small lingering pains after my workouts of varying intensity the more inspired I am to stretch regularly. In fact, I've started doing it as of a few days ago. Sometimes you have to be the change you want to see in the world.
5. My midterms are coming up and honestly I'm only a little nervous. It's only natural I guess. I can't say I'm really unprepared either, it's just that my mind was never conditioned for these big tests, and I'm afraid that any small mistake I make can throw my mind into a frenzy. I'm not good with failure in the moment. The moment immediately after though? It's as if nothing happened.
6. I'm really disgusting.
7. A truly harmonious society once existed. Conflict all but absent. One day, a man came along and committed an unforgivable crime. His punishment stretched far beyond public ostracization and deeper into sadism. One had to ask if the weight of his sins warranted his punishment. This would not be the end of this kind of behavior. Things returned to normal. Those unknown to the feeling that a sense of justice gave them, however, started looking for ways to emulate that day. You wouldn't know when you had to find yourself before the mercy of the mob, so you might as well had joined them while you could. Yet, it wouldn't be long until the mob turned against itself. Man against man. Incessant; without motive. Only that it felt good, in a sick way. One may ask who that man is, what he had done, or whether or not he had done what he had done in the first place. All of which uncertain, only hearsay. Only his name remained: i_ai_r.
8. Top 5 mildly annoying bullshit things ever: When doors are opening and closing and you can hear them violently reverberate throughout your walls. Stop it. I'm scared. Are you slamming something? I'm sorry if I did something wrong.
9. I'm really liking Linux on the Thinkpad but honest to God the battery life is just horrible no matter what you do or what you have. I'd like to say that auto-cpufreq is an incredible program in this regard, but at the same time is this the best we can really get on modern hardware?
10. At least it's better than those older meme machines that people on imageboards pretended to actually use for years. Good luck getting mileage out of those unless you want to hot swap 9-cell lithium ion batteries every two and half hours.
11. Re the door reverberating thing: Could this just be an American phenomenon? I know that even our "insular" structures are actually made out of cardboard so I'm curious on whether or not this is just a physics thing I'm overlooking or its just a side effect of this #bullshit
12. Everything was going so well for the Greek national team. They had a golden generation just a few years away from being fully ripe and good positioning in the World Cup qualifiers ~2 international breaks ago. Yet, they just completely fell apart. They're losing out on a runner-up spot to fucking Scotland of all nations. They play shittily! Anti-football! They don't even have rapists positioned at midfield like Arteta's Arsenal so they don't even have that going for them they're completely ANEMIC and you get gaped by them. Disgusting. Very disgusting
13. I'm so glad that my baseball team, the one with which I have been a fan of since birth, the Seattle Mariners, have reached the American League Championship Series for the first time since 2001. Not only that, but they won game 1. This is an incredible development. There's hope everywhere in the world
14. Hope for everyone except i_ai_r of course. Everything's at the expense of me so you, yes you (the reader) can enjoy the life you live to the fullest. Be sure to say "thank you i_ai_r" the next time you can!
15. I honestly miss reading. Nothing's stopping me from reading but I just kinda miss it. I hate when I can't form a long term habit. It's moreso reminiscing up until I find the will to get myself going again.
16. Over my next break, I want to draw many beautiful women and read many books.
17. I didn't think the cut was working up until I started avoiding trigger foods and I got to see my awesome abs becoming more visible by the day. I'm still scared that I'm actually starving myself all things considered because "avoiding trigger foods" isn't necessarily ridding myself of stomach pains and bloating altogether. Maybe that'd explain my random bouts of tiredness but I can pin it on a thousand other things honestly. Modern science exists to find correlation in the most menial things and we're not even gonna have that anymore
18. The American Century of Humiliation.
19. Sometimes you don't understand how stupid late-stage internet politics are up until someone tries to force it unto others and they end up pushing them away entirely, usually at the expense of others. Often times, you won't really know, but expecting others to care about something is the most selfish thing you can do.
20. Sometimes you just think about something close to you a little bit too hard and begin to be on the verge of tears before you even know it. Music certainly aids in this sentimentality have you ever experience it. Avoid music if you don't really want to start crying.
21. Like dude Love is... almost got something out of me one time. That's fucking stupid. Yet, I still know it had to have been the chorus.
22. I don't want to be employed in any traditional sense. Work from home or death. Work on a boat or death.
23. I would've been a pretty girl honestly
24. It's actually kinda fucked up that your body only needs a fraction of the amount of melatonin as is usually packaged in most products. I don't think I'd want that out of a sleep aide, but I haven't been feeling many side effects from it.
25. A part of me considered picking up cosplay as a hobby for a bit around the time I was 15. I don't know why, honestly. I don't even know what necessarily was on my mind. What did I want to get out of it?
26. Nothing at all probably. I do a lot of things because I want to. I even was about to become a psych major as soon as a few months ago, I just didn't out of obligation (less of a sunk cost, but moreso knowing that it'd be the right thing to do for where I would want to be in the near future).
27. Honestly I was probably like 5'4 tops at the time and I should've dressed up as a girl
28. I don't see myself wanting to die young like what seems like a growing number of my contemporaries. I would like to be in the best health I can as I progress through the later stages of my life. I want to know a lot while being wise and capable of being my own person into the final stages of my existence. By then, I hope we could have gotten a clear answer behind all of this.
29. My mom always loved to tell me that I asked my first hyperbolical existentially dreadful question at the age of about 5. Something along the lines of "what happens when we die". But honest to God, even if you aren't privy to the idea of knowing such a thing in the first place, wouldn't you at least be a little curious?
30. Like, say it's something that only you would know, only you could know. Unable to really be articulated or comprehended outside of an abstract concept in your mind just like the Tao. You'd undoubtedly want some affirmation.
31. Allah please smite the Los Angeles Dodgers
32. I want to have an "Unc Moment" like Nas
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