1. listen white boy
2. Things have been getting hard for me. Yet, they still feel in my control. Is this self-determination?
3. I'm almost out of my stockpile of lemonade ice tea Monster rehabs. I'm trying to figure out where to go from here. I should try Ghost again.
4. Ghost is so fucking good man you don't even know. My issue with Ghost though is that its kinda expensive all things considered and that it tastes too good. There are too many energy drinks that just taste too good. I can't drink 2 of these, that's like 400mg of caffeine!
5. Linguistics is a very interesting topic, but I'm afraid that it's so multi-faceted that brushing over each individual topic as a starter makes me feel extremely pseudointellectual. However, it is to my belief that this is necessary because no topic is mutually exclusive to another.
6. Discrete mathematics though? Discrete math can fuck off because most of discrete math (and proofs in particular) are trying to find ways to verbalize knowledge that has been innate to you for damn near your entire life. You know something's true because... you just know. Trying to verbalize it is a whole other battle.
7. I also don't like my school's intro physics courses. Honestly I think nobody does. They're very filter-y for an amazing reason: There are too many STEM majors. Anyways the averages on the exams are usually no more than 70 percent and I don't think I put out my best work on that one. Regardless to my knowledge it will be curved. Blessed is iair
8. I learned that my GPA is good enough to consider studying abroad. Now whether or not I will actually go through with it is a whole other thing, but having the option makes me feel rather powerful.
9. Like wow I could really go to Munich I guess
10. There are a lot of critics of new nutritional products for great reasons. Honestly the best argument against stuff like Huel and Super Vegan Supplement Powders Wow is that honest to god they just don't taste that good. However taking into account that I'm American and all of our food is highkey sapped of nutrients (not like I'm eating that well to begin with in the first place) I see it as a very useful thing to have as a meal supplement. Emphasis on supplement. You see that? I'm not gonna be drinking 3000 calories of Huel every day I'd lowkey be noxious to be around.
11. I cannot stop thinking about Huell Babineaux from Breaking Bad whenever I bring up Huel.
12. I don't care if I'm digesting an unhealthy amount of lead one of their powders made me unnecessarily horny one time and I think thats really funny
13. There's some shit like lions mane ashwagandha and maca in there. Literal Kevin Gates stack. Imagine drinking that for breakfast and all of a sudden you got a boner talking to your twink coworker like come here boy!! Lol
14. A new hobby of mine is, as opposed to watching anime, going on sites like Anilist and Myanimelist and browsing recommendations from my favorite shows to see what milquetoastly rated show from the 2000s looks the most interesting. Shigofumi, you are now on the list
15. I read the synopsis of Simoun and wondered how more people aren't being annoying about this in YooL 2025
16. You have an enemy in me Nik Bonnito.
17. Football actually became so boring to me that I started watching football (European) more than it at some points last year. For some Jaxson Dart agnostic reason(s) it's just a lot more interesting this year. Maybe its contingent on Joe Flacco being good.
18. Sometimes I feel some pressure in my wrists idling and I wonder if it's already over for me.
19. The worst part about being an active member of society is the fact that nothing you ding up can really heal the way its supposed to. Everything is always constantly in motion. Something always just feels "off", you're never physically right and you gotta keep stretching and whatnot.
20. I thought Malik Nabers saying his ACL tear was a "blessing in disguise" was pure PR slop but knowing that his toes were fucked up beyond belief with a partially torn labrum and all really puts everything into perspective. Not just in terms of a professional athlete, but also anyone remotely active, to where a period of effectively at least 6 months of downtime is considered a "blessing" because you can't really move anything the way you're supposed to.
21. Brief advice for gym: Do not do high weights on weighted dips and inclined benches. You WILL fuck up your rotator cuff(s) for weeks. It's an insufferable type of lingering pain. Just keep the reps high and maybe do an extra set if you feel up to it. It feels like you've done more by the end anyway.
22. I_ai_r stomach update: All I need to do is not lay down after eating and I will not ruin my day. I have to repeat this several times a day so I don't end up ruining my day
23. I have had a few people recently praise me as being some sort of panopticon for a plethora of knowledge, but the secret behind all of this is, even if you believe if I'm trying to appear smart and nuanced, I am always speaking out of my ass. It's gotten to a point where a lot of verbal stuff I do medatatively appears substantially worse than the things I make up at the top of my head. Maybe this is the secret. Maybe it's all a shitpost for me.
24. On account of another person who has actually read Homestuck, this is apparently just Homestuck.
25. On account of myself, I have not read Homestuck, and will not read Homestuck.
26. I've been psyopped to believe I supposedly look really good with short hair. No. I can confirm that this is not the case.
27. But it's not like I want long long hair. I like having a lot on my head but not to the point where it's overwhelming. That's what I have right now, and I can only wonder how long it can be up until I have to maybe settle on a definitive "style" before it becomes unsalvagable.
28. I also started using MCT oil on my scalp and eyebrows and it's been working great in the whole "making me look Italian" thing. I am completely absent of oil otherwise. Which is a good thing when you think "oh yeah no acne or anything like that" but also I'm fucking DRY and have sensory issues and I feel that shit every day
29. The more I learn about how integral gut health is to everything else in your body makes me scared. I already mentioned the topic offhandedly, but now I'm seriously considering doing infinitely more things to try and help repair it to the way it was before I became bitchmade.
30. I'm tired and keeping things short because of this fact. i_ai_r will return to full production soon. It's a promise.
EXTRA ERRATA IAIR. On "finding shit on myanimelist as opposed to actually watching anime": "Yokohama Kaidashi Kikou" is first. If I don't talk about it in any capacity in the next month, you can kill me.