1. I don't listen to music actually. There's no song so don't bother asking about the song.
2. I lament on how incredible it is that I am tolerant with living the way I live. Things can be so much easier yet I just do not want them to be. It does not sit right with me. I've hurt myself before this way, I am hurting myself in the present and will almost certainly harbor some regret in the future, but I'll take sincerity probably anywhere at this point.
3. This is what discrete mathematics does to a man
4. I never check the weather. This has some unintended consequences like "having my ass stuck in torrential downpour for like 20 minutes walking through puddles and shit while it's just needlessly cold". Since I am of course the most knowledgable man of all time, I knew that the best thing to do in such a situation is to keep your body warm. Clothing? No. Running. You run back, and as you're running back it feels like you're almost impervious to anything. My calf tightness from yesterday had disappeared this morning, but what I had been doing is something I haven't done for weeks anticipating reaggrevating my injuries; a full sprint across all terrain. No stride too short or too long. Something so menial shouldn't feel particularly as life affirming, but my issue with running has always been the way your mind reacts to the body overheating. You remove that aspect of it and it feels like you've activated a cheat code at the end, although you still need to remind yourself to breathe as you would.
5. It feels wrong not being able to look forward to Jaxson Dart on Sunday (today), but Jameis will surely fill the hole in my heart
6. These past few weeks have been hellish but ultimately it's nothing new. I knew this was going to happen because I've already lived it before and I haven't been caught particularly off guard. What I do need to do though is ensure that I understand everything conceptually instead of working within the bounds of problems given, because one thing I've learned is that professors who end up having exams with crazy score distributions that eventually bottom out around the 50-60% range is that the exams are designed with complete conceptual understanding in mind. Recall the exact situation in which you'd need to use an equation and cross compare to what is given to see if its necessary.
7. Also I love making retarded mistakes because often times I don't check my work in the way I should. Cuts myself
8. I'm on my boyinaband shit here but I don't understand academia's incessant emphasis on testing. I understand that in a lot of instances there's no real substitute, but in the end the next best thing would just be getting rid of the concept of "grades" altogether because honestly they just don't mean anything anymore. Nothing means anything anymore. The modern college admissions process has already proved this. What the fuck is a grade point average
9. Pass/fail everything. Everything is simple. No cum. Instead of graduating and running around bragging how you've been bestowed with cum how about you do something that's a net benefit instead of say, manipulating capital or living in San Francisco
10. "cum" is in reference to Latin honors if you somehow don't happen to know, I don't want to look profoundly crazy so I'm just mentioning that offhandedly here. I'm normal
11. Top 3 girls ever: 1) Fuuko from Clannad 2) My wife 3) Tarik Skubal
12. I have beared witness to a lot of cute things as of recent. One of the things which I've had to "bear" with is Ernest and Celestine (2012). I watched it with my wife (famously the #2 girl ever). It is about a bear and a mouse learning to live together. It is also really cute. They're also French. Did you know that?
13. Now I might sound crazy but I believe in a theory that the French are actually the first ever "Western Oriental" type peoples. The inadversity to sinking time and money into animated works and all of the weird sex shit they've been involved with for pretty much their entire existence all but affirms it.
14. I'm pretty dull on world history and can't recall particular sequences of events but for most of Japan's existence it has been synonymous with isolationism, and in "modern" terms it didn't really open up to Western influence up until the Meiji restoration (if I recall correctly). We all know how Napoleon got down. So now I do have to ask: are the French "Western Oriental" or are the Japanese actually "Eastern French"?
15. Whenever I see an effiminate looking man sitting alone amongst a group of catty-looking-sounding girls, I envision 2 futures for him: One where he kills himself in shame, and one where he becomes the philosopher he was always meant to be, fueled by nothing more than spitefulness towards his sexual attraction towards the idea of being a woman.
16. Everything I write is the result of learned experience
17. I don't like subscribing to schools of thought because in the end it just feels like idolatry. Imagine, as another man, holding faith in a certain set of beliefs with a name bestowed from another man. Like philosophy. Kantianism and Nietzcheanism. "I believe in Kant", "I subscribe to Kant", or maybe even "I Kant believe it!" .
18. "These are the observations of someone who has lived a completely different life than me. I must take them entirely to heart and formulate my own opinions on the basis of them and god forbid someone else thinks differently than me". "I moved from a small little suburb in Illinois to Manhattan and my job is SaaS AI quantitative research and also I drug and rape women". This is what you sound like. Make whatever make sense with your own qualia. You shouldn't care from who or where it's from.
19. I think it's ok to be fundamentally contradictory because I don't think anything makes sense at all to begin with. Seeing the true colors of the way the United States is ruled for the past year has made me call into question just about everything. It's all on a "I'll believe it when I see it" basis now.
20. Explain to me why the fuck Benjamin Franklin stood his ass up on the roof
21. I've found myself getting perpetually annoyed at doing anything willingly for more than an hour. It doesn't matter if its leisurely or not. If I'm doing something and I spend a copious amount of time on it, I must have been unconscious to the passage of time to begin with. This is the way I used to be able to get my work done, and I think I've finally got my swagger back. I also feel like an incomplete human being but that's ok
22. I had been handling this new laptop like a saint and regardless of the fact a hairline fracture has already appeared on the edge of the palmrest. This doesn't matter at all, because I ended up buying this and it had a massive warranty attached to it. If it becomes a massive problem outside of my control, they should fix it. Actually they have to else I will have to step in.
23. I'm not actually scared to get a job I just play it up for laughs. Cheers
24. The mighty Greek national team clobbered the Scottish this time around and now they control their destiny. The Greeks however got eliminated from Euro qualification in record time and just pulled that shit out for the laughs
25. I'm so tired. Previous policy still applies. The posts will unfortunately keep getting smaller