1. Don't let the title fool you we're not winning big. In fact if you just peek a little behind the curtains you can see that everything-- literally everything-- is on fire and there is no way to stop it. However, that does not mean that you as an individual has to be directly influenced by it. Maybe you can't see the sun. Maybe the air is unbreathable. But when you are "I air", such problems simply don't exist
2. Just kidding!! I think if you're not at least a little uncertain about the future you need to get your brain checked. You are not well
3. But everyone has to be a little uncertain I'm sure. It's been a common theme across every generation (albeit with drastically different economic circumstances that either divide or amplify itself). I find it hard to believe that anyone cared about a nuclear suicide pact in the Soviet Union in the period following World War 2 with all of that money they got
4. Dude who's only turmoil in life was huffing lead paint and going to drive in movie theaters voice "Back in my day we had to do nuclear bomb drills at school"
5. But I think this kind of conflict differs in such a way where there objectively is no real defined good vs evil force but more like a vague "us vs. them" conflict that doesn't really amount to anything because of myriad factors most of which are related to bread and circuses
6. Strictly within the scope of the United States of course, because what has transpired has almost entirely been caused by catalysts operating within the United States, and the continued humiliation from that fact belongs to us.
7. People like to hypothesize within the scope of other collapsing empires like the Romans or the Soviets, as in: "what happens when the infrastructure we took for granted breaks and there's no one to fix it", and "what if working men begin to miss meals". It's fun to think about if you like things happening, but ultimately what is happening is a slow power grab and I bet there are some people out there who have not yet noticed it. They have likely not noticed it either because 1) They have amassed enough capital elsewhere (even then, every market out there is down at least a good 15-20%) or 2) They are just plain retarded and/or natural slaves
8. That's to say that if things continue nothing will come of it. A permanent underclass will be established and 99.999999% of people will likely fester in it forever, thanks to the acts of some people allowing for mass surveillance to be implemented just about everywhere under the pretense of security and convenience; even those things begin to come at a premium now despite rampant data collection and direct correspondence with rogue federal agencies
9. ... and I think a lot of people (respectable bipartisans, republicans) do not want to believe the fact and that's why nothing has happened
10. The conditioning that the American political system has undergone via massive changes in social media (and the way people choose to use it) and to an extent /pol/ (as new information suggests!) effectively allows for no real solidarity amongst the general populus because everything has effectively become a conspiracy due to the fact that information sources (traditional or not) have become completely unreliable
11. I think that in itself may have been considered a conspiracy for a bit, especially ~2020 during the whole COVID saga (THE UNITED NATIONS IS LYING TO YOU) but now more than ever the curtains have unfurled on specific topics deemed too sensitive to members of the political elite (ex. CBS buck dancing for Trump with the whole 60 Minutes scandal)
12. Anyways, it could then be said that now that federal agents have some sort of jurisdiction to detain US citizens and send them to internment camps without due cause if the supposed "checks and balances" that have existed throughout the nations illustrious 250 year history (so illustrious in fact that they had to put fucking ugly patches on the new Super Bowl jerseys commemorating the fact) fail exactly what you think is going to happen will happen.
13. As a more harrowing thought a proper collapse in the United States would almost surely bring forth a similar human trafficking network to the one that existed in the ex-Soviet republics following their collapse
14. The human trafficking network analogous to the one that resident Diddy Blud Jeffery Epstein ran yes. Please do not try to live with this thought I guarantee you will go insane
15. Remember that shit the vato from The Matrix said? Ignorance is bliss? Yeah something like that. Not to get a little Alex Jones Bitchute on you
16. This actually acts as a good enough segue to talk about something that happened when I had way too much time in 2020, outside of my psychotic episodes involving online privacy so much so that I was typing up a proposal to my school district for a non-zero amount of time to make sure that the personal data of minors does not get sold
17 ... that being the one time I got really big into watching people investigate Pizzagate videos of morbid curiosity. It wasn't something influenced by the objective belief in everything that was detailed in the common "story" was true (think Comet Ping Pong and Tom Hanks gloating about child rape and murder) but more so that something tangentially of that nature existed in the world. Yes I was insane but guess who was right
18. There was this one dude named Mouthy Buddha whose search led him to discovering very illegal things on the clear web, being sent myriad credible threats via email, and being admitted into a mental health hospital to put the cherry on top. Hardly any of it was correlated to the Pizzagate canon and also Anthony Bourdain's suicide was involved. Funny shit; it actually is really that easy to stumble into something you're not supposed to see on the internet (now with Twitter, you're just a hashtag away!)
19. I'm not gonna bother to look where he is now but I'm assuming it all culminated in some Eyes Wide Shut (1999) shit
20. Okay that's enough schizophrenic ranting I'm so sorry i_ai_r fans I'll begin to talk about much more mundane things since I know that's what you're all here for
21. I think it's very funny that a lot of things are going well in my own life in the midst of a national (global?) suicide
22. Everything outside of my legs. I think in previous posts I kept complaining about calf strains I got just trying to live my life-- that's not the problem anymore since I started stretching as much as I should-- now both of my patellar tendons are fucked. Like really fucked
23. Right now it's just plain inflammation (the same kind that has lingered with me for the past half year and change) but before I felt as if something was seriously wrong with my right knee because I was walking with a whole ass limp for a weeks time. As it stands right now, I have been subjected to the "ibuprofen and no cardio" mines
24. It really sucks for various reasons. For one, I have no idea if its getting better or worse since I have to use my legs a lot regardless (a lot of inclines, that same 3 miles of walking every day), not to mention the fact that I enjoy running a lot more than weightlifting, which I have been subjected to 3 times a week
25. Plus+!: I am now actually building muscle. Back when I was doing all of that running and shit I could barely keep anything on me. Not in a good way, as in: no progress whatsoever! My PR didn't improve, my build didn't get any more twinkish, and my penis was still really small
26. Ultimately it all condenses down into the perfect excuse to stay on my computer more, especially now that I've found progressively more productive things to do with it, such as study japanese extensively, that which I am stalling on to write this blogpost.
27. I began reading 素晴らしき日々～不連続存在～ for 90 minutes a day beginning a few days ago. I got through the prologue chapter and I actually got a little sad towards the end. I think a lot of lines just hit harder when you ultimately have to think of them more to actually comprehend what's being said.
28. Then again, can this dude lore dump about literally anything else except the most mundane bullshit ever
29. I've also been doing Anki for like 2 weeks straight. I actually haven't done Anki consistently for over a year, so this is big progress in my regard. The progress in question is "allowing habits to form without any outside interference" and to an extent "getting off my ass and doing something, knowing if I delayed I would never actually get around to it, despite what I would like to think"
30. Things that have NOT improved: my drawing ability. I don't think it's in my best interest anyway since I think I have a lot of good ideas then I just don't. Even then I think thats oversimplifying a bit, because what I actually have are "ideas way beyond my skill level", and to get to there I have to keep meticulously studying up until I'm able to implement them to a degree of satisfaction
31. I will be a victim to rejecting the natural progression of skills again and I will like it. I do not want "progress" I want instant results. As to what those results will ultimately be, I am uncomfortable with saying
32. Things that I have NOT been doing but am looking to improve on or even work on coherently: Writing. Hell, it's been a month since the last blogpost, but I'd say that's because I had nothing to talk about, and when I did have something to talk about, I posted about it on my Twitter anyway, and it lost its appeal in my eyes
33. I've become more comfortable with moving around for "non-essential reasons" (such as: fucking around downtown) where its less socially acceptable to be on Twitter 24/7 so I have not been able to speak on most events. Therefore, they're suitable for the blog and I will be listing them off shortly
34. Yesterday I went to two different book shops and a record store and came out empty handed. The only things I were tempted to buy were a Wu-Tang Clan shirt and a copy of Marx's Capital that I promised myself that I only would buy if I could find a copy of "The Wealth of Nations" to pair alongside it, that which was not there
35. I was also thinking about seeing a movie or two too. Unfortunately, the second part of 28 Years Later stopped running after like a weeks time (it wasn't THAT much of a flop Jesus Christ) before I even got to indulge in a first viewing, and now I have to see that one illicitly or just on digital. I also didn't want to see Markiplier's Iron Lung because I don't know the first thing about Iron Lung, the game
36. The day before that, I decided to eat sushi after my big (and only) exam. I did really well on the exam so I thought it deserved a groyper feast and I was 1000% correct. I got confused with the tab for a bit though and that felt really embarassing
37. I feel as if a lot of novelty in things you could do in the downtown of any city expires once you realize that most of it requires some sort of capital investment. No, I don't think bringing some friends with me could make it any better
38. Regardless, I'd like to wake up nice and early one day and go and eat breakfast. A lot of pancakes and eggs early in the day. Apple juice. Dark coffee. Cool breeze. $30 tab
39. In the midst of my myriad bus rides I also got to jerk myself off (metaphorically no megasasuke) due to my complex and sensitive inner mind. The conversation you hear amongst people in the 15-20 minutes you spend commuting is just completely mind numbing-- a university bus route, where most of the commuters that have the gall to open their mouths are teenage girls-- and make me appreciate having the refined tastes of a completely antisocial freak that sounds like he wants everyone around him to die without further elaborating on what he says
40. Anyways to elaborate further outside of the bog standard complaints about "oh my god why are you so loud" and "why do you feel the need to say such things out loud to begin with" is the constant regurgitation of what I felt like were flavor of the month social media trends. I'm talking about reminiscing on 2016 for some reason. Surface level Pinterest analysis. Vile. Who does that? Who wants to reminisce on 2016 like it hasn't already been established that we've been living in an eternal 2016 for the past decade? Answer: riajuu
41. Hot new question amongst distinguished youth: Do riajuu have souls?
42. Hotter, newer question amongst distinguished youth: Do goyim have souls?
43. Answer: No
44. Natural slavery is very much real and it's actually pretty mean to insult someone by calling them one outright even though we've all effectively been transformed into them to begin with. It could very well be over, but I need to check first. We will be able to draw a conclusion by the time the next iair blog is released.
45. When will that be? Who knows. Not even I know. That's why I'm trying to extend this a little bit-- I liked doing them daily when I felt the need to document my daily cortisol spikes from academic stress and soreness from exercising 7 days a week-- now that I've established a higher sense of order in my life the iair blog has become tertiary to my dreams of becoming a perverted military otaku manufacturing fucked up sensors and the likes at a defense contractor, likely my only job choice out of college (if any at all), as well as an oriental scholar capable of drawing out any animated girl in any perverted scenario for any price
46. Maryland, please wait for me. I would love to eat your lobster rolls one day, and I would love to kowtow to the great satan for $90,000 a year
47. I've found myself singing "Cloud Age Symphony", that is, the opening to TV anime "Last Exile", to myself often. I feel really really lame but it's just that good of a song
48. It's either that or "Someone To Call My Lover", which is, rather gay of me
49. He'll drive a funky car
50. Looking back at everything I just wrote I feel as if this is more in line with what I wished to accomplish when I first started writing the posts like this; I appear as if I'm mentally unwell in a way. I think my issue prior, outside of being too tired to think straight (although that's when my abstract thinking is at its best), is that I was not drinking Ghost Energy. Everything here is a product of Ghost Energy. Ghost Energy is so good that they need to sponsor me and, if they don't, I'm going to get really really mad. You may not even see the blog again it's that serious
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