It's hard to be as hopeful as I was before. I possess a lot of doubt in just about everything and it feels like all of it has bubbled to the surface; the act of thinking about it so strenuous that sometimes the hours and days pass without me feeling like I've done anything remotely productive at all. I have the benefit of the doubt considering that I have nothing to do at the current moment (this will unfortunately change in a week's time) but I'm questioning if this is something that I actually need before being thrust back into the vicious cycle of work and gym-going and creaky joints and smelling vaguely bad and leveraging my free time poorly wondering why nobody fucks with me. I guarantee that this will make just about anyone go insane but, no, not iair. It's all fine in iair world. Even when it isn't, it's fine. I won't have air conditioning for the next 2 months and it's gonna be like 90 degrees. I've been here before. It's fine. Nothing seems to be going right? Tuesday for iair. Fuck you we're all good